Ever love someone so much that it hurts? Because mostly everyone around you doesn’t want you to be with them.. Over one mess up… Yeah … It sucks. I love you and I’m not going anywheres. I just hope one day… My loved ones will see my true pain without you. Ugh. I love you with all of my heart. I’m here and I want you to always know that. I hope one day everyone will see my feelings. I’m sick of the judgment and bullshit. I love you.
Normally I don’t post this kinda stuff… I realized how awesome my diet has come. I’ve been happy seeing my tummy get smaller… Today I saw it and giggled off the fact I feel as though I’ve gained afew pounds. I sit here alone in my thoughts and it makes me emotion… Ick. Disgusted at the fact I ever let myself go this bad. I was skinny… I thought I used to be fat :/ now I look back and think “wow… What I’d do to get back to that size….”ick. I need to do this. Some how… I hate how easy it is to gain weight and how hard it is to lose it. I wanna wake up and have 10 pounds gone. I’d be so happy. Starting tomorrow it’s back to my old ways with this diet. I want to make myself happy again. My esteem is gone. Ick.